Day 5 - I actually went into work

I woke up a little before 8 am and took my xanax- lexapro combo. I felt tense and a little tired, but I felt confident that I would have a good day. I took a shower and ate a breakfast of two eggs, a bagel and a banana.

My tension increased as I drove to work. Listening to the radio, specifically talk shows, seems to relax me. I think talk radio gives me the false impression that someone else is there with me and I am apart of the conversation. However, by the time I parked my car, I was really panicky and did not want to get out of my car. I was not having a panic attack, but I could feel the tension getting worse and worse and I wanted to escape the situation and go home. I called my father who convinced me to ride it out and try to go into my office. I was by myself in the office and my tension would come and go. I took another xanax, did some controlled breathing, and began to relax. Within an hour more people started to arrive in the office (people come in between 9 30 and 11), and I started to feel more comfortable.

Other than my morning experience, my energy was up and I almost felt like normal me. My energy disappeared in the afternoon, but so did my office mate's. Our work is boring and we were practically done for the week.

I came home around 4 30 PM and tried to take a nap. I could not fall asleep, but I just laid on my bed watching TV.

I ate dinner with my pills. I was suppose to go to a birthday party, but I had no motivation or energy to go. I ended up watching a movie with my roommates and going to bed. I had no trouble sleeping.