Day 15

I had a little trouble sleeping last night and the ringing returned to my ear again. The buzzing never returned, but the ringing bothered me. Once 1 am rolled around, I took a Xanax and was able to fall asleep.

I naturally woke up around 7 am and the ground was covered with snow. There was no way I could go to work yet, so I thought to go to bed. I ended up getting back up and shoveling my drive way and helped my roommate shovel out his car since he can't work from home. I then went back to bed and ended up sleeping until 11 30 am. I was not motivated to do anything for work, and I had a meeting at 2 pm to introduce me to my new project and team. I wasn't stressed or worried for the meeting, I just had no motivation or energy to care. Once I woke up, I made lunch, and was able to focus a little.

After my meeting, the roads were clearer and I decided to drive into my office since I was getting no work done at home. Once at work, I was able to get more done and was more productive even though there were only two of us in the entire office.

I came home happy that I accomplished somethings, made dinner, and watched another movie with my roommate. I am currently tired and plan on trying to fall asleep when I finish this post.

I really want to figure out this energy thing. The first day I was with the psychiatrist, she did not understand this extreme lack of energy. Again, I feel 100 times more energetic than I did two weeks ago, but I am still overly tired at weird parts of the day. I am hoping that with getting over this depression my energy will return, but we will see.